This is my sunrise.

It's funny, perspective on life changes all the time.  We think that life couldn't get any better or any worse, depending on our circumstances.  When I was living in Lake City, CO working with the horse program, I would walk across the field every morning thinking "could life get any better than this?!"  I get to round up 40 fun and crazy horses at 9,000ft. in the middle of a breathtaking valley of the Rocky Mountains.  Fall up there is the best.  Watching the horses run through the morning fog with the aspen leaves changing vibrant reds, oranges and yellows.  Every now and then, catching a peak of the snowy mountain tops through the lifting fog.  Then you would scare up a flock of Canadian geese and watch them fly away into the enormous sky.  I really didn't think life got much better.  I love the mountains and everything about living there.  As beautiful as that may be, I never knew that my own baby would make all of that pale in comparison.  Lately I've been hearing a lot of women my age cringe at the idea of "getting pregnant," oh, you mean, having a baby or meeting a person.  Or the mother who can't appreciate her new little treasure because it's "oh so hard!"  It makes my heart so sad because, I too, never knew the beauty in a new life.  Looking into the eyes of my little one, looking into his sweet face, hearing him giggle is my own mountain sunrise.  He is infinitely more beautiful than the mountains and horses.  I will always love those things and they will always bring me to tears with their beauty, but Charlie has beat it all.  I get so overwhelmed thinking about my God who gives us these blessings.  How amazing it will be to see his face in Heaven, I can't even imagine.  Psalm 37:4 "Delight yourself in the Lord; and He will give you the desires of your heart."  Awe does surround me when I remember that God knows our desires before we do.  I went out to Redcloud only knowing it was a spot on the map and it was a hidden desire of my heart I never knew.  Charlie surprised me in this way too.  Up until the moment I saw him, I had no idea, but God did.  Lets be in awe of our mighty Creator!  He has good things for us!